Vibrations, Omens

1. Progress? The previously written about "tingles" or changes felt in the body have changed into something that can no longer be attributed to imagination. The sensation is consistent with the "vibrations" written about by Monroe. As of now they seem very hit-or-miss. They seem confined mostly to the hands and feet, though the sensations have also been felt elsewhere as well. When taking time to sit or be motionless, sometimes they are present, sometimes they are not. Sitting for longer periods does not seem to necessarily amplify the sensation, but the feeling correlates with 1. relaxation and 2. motionlessness.

2. It is the middle of the work week now so I cannot experiment more with long sits. Although, I may investigate focusing on relaxation and being motionless while keeping the eyes open for brief intervals throughout the day. It is not clear whether closing the eyes or not is significant. If I close them at work it will stick my contact lenses to my eyes. But, it seems my goal now should be to try to figure out a way to amplify these vibrations.

3. It is interesting that the sensations focus on the hands and feet. This does correlate with the meridians described in occult literature, or with the locations of the "holy wounds" of Christ.

4. One of the things that left an impression on me when I read Patanjali's Yoga Sutras years ago was at one point he makes a reference to omens. At one point he says something along the lines of "by discerning omens, the yogi gains knowledge..."

Prior to reading this I never would have considered the possibility of such things. In fact, after reading many works over the years, I still think this is the one reference to omens I can think of in all of mystical literature.

Over the years I have gone back and forth between seeing minor little events and attributing to them a greater meaning or significance, and on the other hand dismissing them as meaningless.

There was one "omen" I saw as a teenager when out on a solitary walk, in which two large, mating? dragonflies passed in front of me. This was very pertinent at the time, as I was still conflicted over the usual socially-induced sexual repression taught by society. It made clear that sexual desire was a natural part of the human experience and that what society taught about it was dysfunctional.

Over the past two years, I have developed a pain in my abdomen, on the right side between the end of the ribs and the start of the stomach. It seems to be localized to a certain "spot" or point. I was concerned about this when it did not go away, and went to the doctor's for it. The doctor conducted a number of tests, and an ultrasound, but could not find anything where the pain was. Since it has been two years I have since concluded "well it is just a pain I permanently have now" and that it is benign. Perhaps a muscle or a nerve that has been permanently damaged. It was only yesterday when I realized the location of the pain correlates with the injury of Longinus. "Well, great." Didn't ask for that one. Now, it could be complete accident, or it could be something of significance. But, it is one way to interpret the permanent pain there.